rmg7: just say it.

ryan (

rmg7) wrote,
@ 2008-12-08 10:48:00

Current mood:

bored

just say it.
Tell me anything you'd like.

You can make it anonymous. So I won't know. Nobody will.

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(Anonymous)
2008-12-09 11:20 am UTC (link)

I miss the times like when we first met. It was just so like...fun to have a new friend. I can't believe it's nearly been two years. I miss talking all of the time, and I really want to hang out soon. You'll probably be able to guess this. But I just want to say thank you for being so sweet to me when we first met and all. I thought every guy in the 7th and 8th grade would have been making fun of me since I had come out recently. But you weren't, you were sweet :] ily Ryan! And I want to hang out soon!

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rmg7
2008-12-09 05:49 pm UTC (link)

awh, i know who this is. :)

i'm glad i did talk to you, i don't know what made me, you just seemed cool. i was beginning to try and break out of my shell and you appealed to me so i was like, "i'm gonna talk to her. :)" and i did. i'm glad you enjoy talking to me. i usually bore people with my conversations, but i always felt a better connection with you. :) and we're hanging out friday so no worries! :]

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emmyfacetm, 2008-12-09 10:19 pm UTC

cupcakes
(Anonymous)
2008-12-09 05:42 pm UTC (link)

killer cupcakes. that's right. killer cupcakes.
....
now that that's out of the way...
you know what i really hate?
long-sleaved pjs. i always feel like their strangling me and cutting off my circulation. i know it's stupid but i still feel that way.
i also hate weeping angels. meaning the statues. i hate most statues but weeping angels the most. when you turn your back it's like their staring at you....
and finally i hate the dark. yes. at 16 i am still afraid of the dark. and monsters under my bed.... i don't care if it's pathetic. well... maybe i do but that's not going to change it.

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	Re: cupcakes rmg7 2008-12-09 05:53 pm UTC (link)
	that's all pretty interesting. it's okay if you're afraid of that stuff, plenty of adults still can't bear the thought of monsters under their bed or the dark. (Reply to this) (Parent)

(Anonymous)
2008-12-09 09:35 pm UTC (link)

I miss the way we used to talk. You used to be in so depth with things. You would say things and I would think, "How does he think this way and manage to be able to put it into words?" Not saying that you don't think like that anymore, I just miss when you would tell me more about it. Although I feel like we've gotten closer, I feel like we've grown distant in a way. I don't know. I miss the old days! It's been almost 2 years since we met. I can't believe that. I almost seems like more than that. Those 2 years have contained a ton of things, good and bad. Well, I'm glad for those two years and for the years ahead. We need to hang out more. Thank you for everything you've shown me and taught me.

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;)

rmg7
2008-12-09 10:21 pm UTC (link)

lol i have a good idea of who this is.

and thank you. i'm glad i've taught you things.

i guess i've just decided to not be so expressive about my thoughts nowadays, i use to speak my mind so freely..and then i was just decided one day that i was better off keeping things to myself. i guess i could say i still think that way.

and yeah, it's almost been 2 years now and the years have been good knowing you.

i'm sorry that you feel we're growing distant [in a way]. i've been like that a lot with people lately. not everyone. but some people. i just have a lot more on my mind now than i use to.

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Re: ;) - (Anonymous), 2009-02-18 03:45 am UTC

I'm too quiet
(Anonymous)
2008-12-09 10:21 pm UTC (link)

Friend of a friend of yours, I'm someone you do not know.
Trapped by my loner ways, socialism is foreign, and I desperately wish it wasn't. I find myself silent when my anonymity is taken and no friends are near. I wish I could make friends without leeching...But wishes hold no power in this world...

I wonder if I'll ever meet you...and if I could coax myself into speaking if I did.

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	Re: I'm too quiet rmg7 2008-12-09 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	i use to be quite quiet myself. can't say it's easily compared to your situation, however i'm open to anything you'd like to say to me. i don't want to come off in any shape or form as a close-minded person. and what you said is really insightful, i admire that. (Reply to this) (Parent)

im so fucking displeased with myself.
(Anonymous)
2008-12-09 10:41 pm UTC (link)

i dont understand how anybody could like me, at all.
i find myself to be annoying, bitchy, awkward, and self-centered, and just altogether have an unpleasant personality.
im obsessed with getting people to say nice things about me. that's how selfish i am.
and im so weak that even one wrong thing said about me or to me will ruin my day.
im a hypocrit, pretty much all the time.
im really the best liar ive ever heard of. and it's the worst.
im extremely disorganized and it gets me in trouble.
but whenever i get in trouble i just blame it on someone else.
i hate that.
i feel like the fakest person in the world,
but thats the only way i know how to be, and i hate it so much saldkjf;.

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rmg7
2008-12-09 10:55 pm UTC (link)

The fact that you are aware of all this proves you can do something about it.
Now I don't say any of this as advice. Nor do I obligate you to read it. It's just my thoughts.

We all can change, the idea that people don't change just isn't valid.
You can improve yourself. The idea that people changing isn't possible only stems from the idea of what causes it, at least in my perception of the case.

To say such self-loathing words only gives you more and more a reason to help yourself pick up your confidence.
We all have strength, all you need to do is find out how you can bring it out.

♥

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Re: . - (Anonymous), 2008-12-09 11:30 pm UTC

Re: im so fucking displeased with myself. - (Anonymous), 2009-02-18 03:55 am UTC

You
(Anonymous)
2008-12-16 05:30 pm UTC (link)

I don't mean to sound weird or anything, but I see you every day and you smile or say hey, but it should be so much more than that >.<
I've been told that you said I was cute once.
But I didnt believe my friend when she told me.
because, you'e so gorgeous, smart and funny, that when I go to talk to you, like, properly, I dont know what to do with myself and end up spouting a load of bollocks.
I just though you should know that somebody out there thinks you're the most beautiful boy in the world, because I'll probably never get the courage to tell you ♥

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	Re: You rmg7 2008-12-16 06:16 pm UTC (link)
	whoever you are, you can tell me, it's alright. unless you'd like to keep yourself a secret. i really appreciate you saying those kind things though, thanks. :) (Reply to this) (Parent)

	(Anonymous) 2008-12-16 10:47 pm UTC (link)
	i kinda miss him. actually i hate him. he broke up with me for like no reason. i put alot into our relationship and it blew up in my face. i saw him yesterday. for the first time. i froze. i wish things never changed. i always hated starting over. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2008-12-16 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	You almost never talk to me anymore and it seems as though you're ignoring me. I mean, we were never BEST FRIENDS to start with, but I considered you a friend ,and now I always feel like you don't want to talk to me :\| (Reply to this)

	amytttt 2008-12-17 12:58 am UTC (link)
	my bladder is full but i refuse to get up and pee. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	rmg7 2008-12-17 07:38 am UTC (link)
	i feel you.♥ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	(Anonymous) 2008-12-17 06:11 am UTC (link)
	Everyone is carrying a burden on their shoulders. Every has that one secret they won't tell anyone. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-01-08 02:36 am UTC (link)
	i think i like this kid. :X not such a great idea ^ (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-01-17 01:42 am UTC (link)
	I've done tequila shots with a Disney princess. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-01-21 09:26 pm UTC (link)
	i'll get over him, i promise. i have no chance anyway. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-01-21 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	Im only 16, very friendly, get along with everyone. Everyone seems to know me but they do not know that I had an abortion over Christmas break. (Reply to this)

(Anonymous)
2009-02-01 02:59 am UTC (link)

i don't know how to be happy.
last night, i cut myself for the first time since we met.
i don't care if you figure out who this is.
i love you. and i miss you.
i can't get this poem out of my head:

"Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog

And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo

And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's

and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"

because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint

And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed

when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A

and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went

And he caught his sister
making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her

but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem

And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think

he could reach the kitchen."

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	new and old. (Anonymous) 2009-02-17 04:19 am UTC (link)
	i feel like the past has been so long ago i can't even remember it. talking to you again makes me hellla happy because you're so damn like me it's scary. not all things of course, but most of them. i love how you're just so open about what you're thinking and about what you think of other people; makes you hella fun. oh and you have beautiful eyes. (Reply to this)

emmyfacetm
2009-02-17 04:45 am UTC (link)

This isn't annoymous but I don't care.

I feel so stupid for liking the girl I like. I really hope to have something with this girl one day, but I don't know how long it'll take. I mean, I've had more straight girls like me than gay girls, but I'm not sure. She seems different. I'm not really sure. I just need to work harder for what I want.

I just wish she could see me more clearly that I could give her what she wants.

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	letfeardrive 2009-02-17 04:53 am UTC (link)
	I wish I would stop slacking and listen to the words of HSM and get my head in the game. This attitude won't fly next year. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-02-17 05:02 am UTC (link)
	I still find myself attracted to you. In an odd way. A physical way. I wish you felt the same way, but I know you don't. I'm not using you. It's just lust. I promise. (Reply to this)

	nothing new (Anonymous) 2009-02-17 06:26 am UTC (link)
	this is just a random person here to say thankyou for living, boy. thanks. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-02-18 03:59 am UTC (link)
	you are completely adorable. i just read everything people said to you and its unanimous: you're sweet, thoughtful, helpful, an awesome friend and a whole bunch of other nice adjectives. i generally don't date younger boys, but i maybe have a crush on you. i can't help it, you're just so damn cute. (Reply to this)

	you (Anonymous) 2009-02-18 04:56 am UTC (link)
	i miss the way you use to suck my cock and finger my ass and now its over. why? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: you rmg7 2009-02-18 05:08 am UTC (link)
	lmfao, i'm so sorry it had to be over, you'll find someone betteR! (Reply to this) (Parent)

	(Anonymous) 2009-02-18 04:28 pm UTC (link)
	it's Odd seeing you now. You've grown up different then I imagined However, you're a good kid and you'll do fine in this world. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-02-18 04:46 pm UTC (link)
	we used to be friends. now we hardly talk. kinda sucks. (Reply to this)

	(Anonymous) 2009-02-19 04:39 am UTC (link)
	I think you should be my fag hag ;) (Reply to this)

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